i just thought it'd be more sincere if i write this before you tell me to.. x) so here goes. this is for you, priscilla lim, for being the most perfect girlfriend in my eyes.

i'm sure the two days were as hurtful and confusing to you as they were to me. to be honest, i was shocked at how vulnerable i really was. i start to get frantic and panic whenever i think you're angry or sad and sometimes it drives me to tears. to everyone who's told you something or another, i don't blame them. i'm actually thankful that they're so concerned about you and scared that you'll get hurt. to all of you who's contributed to those two days, thank you. but believe me, i'm more worried that i'll end up hurting her than all of you put together. if you could look inside my heart, you'd know that i'm not out to make her sad or to play with her feelings. it's been a year and a half full of heart breaks, smiles, tears, laughter, sadness, dreams broken.. dreams formed and most of all, love. if i could turn back the clock, i'd do all i can to stop every tear of yours from falling. gosh, i've fallen so deeply in love with you. i'm infatuated, i'm hooked and i can't stop wanting more.

x( from the bottom of my heart, i wish i could be by your side all day and all night long. you make me smile in the sweetest, tiniest ways possible. baby, thanks for giving me chance after chance. i know sometimes i seem far from perfect and i'm really insecure and suspicious, but you still take time to reassure me with that sweet smile of yours. you may find someone more perfect in the future, someone who'll hurt you less and make you smile more often, but i'll always treasure the times you've given me. throughout those two days, all i knew was that i can't lose you, i won't be able to take it if i ever see you with someone else. let me be the one to love you baby, let me be the one to hold your hand when you're sad, to lend you my shoulder when you're tired and bring you tissue when you cry. let me be the one to make you happy, to talk to you when you're troubled and to tuck you in with a kiss when you're sleepy. no matter how fierce you were, i couldn't think of how life'd be without you, how i'd be right now if the times i've had with you, were with someone else.. i beg you, don't doubt me, put your heart in my hands. because you're all i long for, all the time. the more time i spend with you, the more i crave for you the harder it is to let go. i'm so scared of losing you one day, so please, everyone out there, x( give me a chance to love her. i can't live without you anymore. i'm SO scared of having to go to sleep alone, having to wake up alone, coming home from school to no one, having to face lonely cold weekends, worshipping in church with no one by my side.. i don't just need someone, i need you.

thank you for giving me another chance, it feels like i've fallen in love with you all over again. :( let's make this last forever okay? i don't 'flatter' you for no reason, you've been the sweetest, most understanding and best girlfriend possible. i don't care what people think of you, because to me? you're the only one i've ever loved, the only one i ever will. will you please hold my hand and walk me through life.. again?